Dominaria Was Lost, But I was Saved – A Magic: The Gathering Memory

Align:start a very long time ago in a distant land a very long time ago in a distant land a very long time ago in a distant land known as the 1990s I was a lonely high known as the 1990s I was a lonely high known as the 1990s I was a lonely high school student with no friends and school student with no friends and school student with no friends and constant fear of others constant fear of others constant fear of others I couldn’t make eye contact with others I couldn’t make eye contact with others I couldn’t make eye contact with others and walked around in between classes and walked around in between classes and walked around in between classes with my head down and my eyes planted with my head down and my eyes planted with my head down and my eyes planted firmly upon my shoes during class I sat firmly upon my shoes during class I sat firmly upon my shoes during class I sat in the back and had my nose buried in in the back and had my nose buried in in the back and had my nose buried in fantasy novels margaret weis and tracy fantasy novels margaret weis and tracy fantasy novels margaret weis and tracy hickman Terry Brooks Connie Willis hickman Terry Brooks Connie Willis hickman Terry Brooks Connie Willis Robert Jordan Octavia Butler these were Robert Jordan Octavia Butler these were Robert Jordan Octavia Butler these were my friends and then one day as I sat my friends and then one day as I sat my friends and then one day as I sat alone on the pavement a girl came up to alone on the pavement a girl came up to alone on the pavement a girl came up to me and said you’re in my invertebrate me and said you’re in my invertebrate me and said you’re in my invertebrate zoology class but I see you all the time zoology class but I see you all the time zoology class but I see you all the time you’re quiet and always by yourself I you’re quiet and always by yourself I you’re quiet and always by yourself I bet you’re really interesting you should bet you’re really interesting you should bet you’re really interesting you should come play magic with us during come play magic with us during come play magic with us during elementary school I had been bullied on elementary school I had been bullied on elementary school I had been bullied on the schoolyard during recess and lunch the schoolyard during recess and lunch the schoolyard during recess and lunch on a daily basis to the point that I on a daily basis to the point that I on a daily basis to the point that I eventually took to hiding out in the eventually took to hiding out in the eventually took to hiding out in the boys bathroom I remember the day some of boys bathroom I remember the day some of boys bathroom I remember the day some of my tormentors figured out where I was my tormentors figured out where I was my tormentors figured out where I was and what I was doing there and what I was doing there and what I was doing there the fact I wanted escaped seemed to the fact I wanted escaped seemed to the fact I wanted escaped seemed to compel them to be even more aggressive compel them to be even more aggressive compel them to be even more aggressive and even more merciless as one slammed and even more merciless as one slammed and even more merciless as one slammed me up against the bathroom wall holding me up against the bathroom wall holding me up against the bathroom wall holding me in place and the other repeatedly me in place and the other repeatedly me in place and the other repeatedly punched me in the stomach both of them punched me in the stomach both of them punched me in the stomach both of them laughing hysterically when brought to laughing hysterically when brought to laughing hysterically when brought to the attention of my elementary school the attention of my elementary school the attention of my elementary school vice-principal and then later the vice-principal and then later the vice-principal and then later the principal I remember both had the same principal I remember both had the same principal I remember both had the same advice toughen up the vice-principal advice toughen up the vice-principal advice toughen up the vice-principal also added you must be doing something also added you must be doing something also added you must be doing something to cause these incidents to continue to cause these incidents to continue to cause these incidents to continue happening I wasn’t sure what I was doing happening I wasn’t sure what I was doing happening I wasn’t sure what I was doing except wanting to be left alone but except wanting to be left alone but except wanting to be left alone but continued the attacks did in seventh continued the attacks did in seventh continued the attacks did in seventh grade algebra several other kids grade algebra several other kids grade algebra several other kids unscrewed the tiny bolts from beneath unscrewed the tiny bolts from beneath unscrewed the tiny bolts from beneath their desks and through these small their desks and through these small their desks and through these small metal screws at my ears metal screws at my ears metal screws at my ears I remember the sharp sting and sound as I remember the sharp sting and sound as I remember the sharp sting and sound as the metal strut flesh one screw missed the metal strut flesh one screw missed the metal strut flesh one screw missed hit the chalkboard alerting my teacher hit the chalkboard alerting my teacher hit the chalkboard alerting my teacher he reprimanded me as I was the one he reprimanded me as I was the one he reprimanded me as I was the one surrounded by a pile of screws on the surrounded by a pile of screws on the surrounded by a pile of screws on the floor it was almost suspended but simply floor it was almost suspended but simply floor it was almost suspended but simply sent home as punishment sent home as punishment sent home as punishment it was in fact like any time I was able it was in fact like any time I was able it was in fact like any time I was able to avoid or otherwise escape school a to avoid or otherwise escape school a to avoid or otherwise escape school a blessing and a reprieve from my constant blessing and a reprieve from my constant blessing and a reprieve from my constant misery by high school as I mentioned I misery by high school as I mentioned I misery by high school as I mentioned I was so terrified of others so convinced was so terrified of others so convinced was so terrified of others so convinced every laugh was at me every interaction every laugh was at me every interaction every laugh was at me every interaction with others a potential pain that I was with others a potential pain that I was with others a potential pain that I was unable to make eye contact with anyone unable to make eye contact with anyone unable to make eye contact with anyone my junior high had been a dropout my junior high had been a dropout my junior high had been a dropout factory and I excelled there just factory and I excelled there just factory and I excelled there just showing up and paying the most minimal showing up and paying the most minimal showing up and paying the most minimal attention earned me endless praise and attention earned me endless praise and attention earned me endless praise and high marks from my teachers then I high marks from my teachers then I high marks from my teachers then I transferred to a high school magnet transferred to a high school magnet transferred to a high school magnet program for advanced biological and program for advanced biological and program for advanced biological and zoological studies I had planned to zoological studies I had planned to zoological studies I had planned to become an animal biologist in those days become an animal biologist in those days become an animal biologist in those days and this magnet school was taught by and this magnet school was taught by and this magnet school was taught by animal biologists and marine biologists animal biologists and marine biologists animal biologists and marine biologists and zoologists people with PhDs where AP and zoologists people with PhDs where AP and zoologists people with PhDs where AP classes were required along with classes classes were required along with classes classes were required along with classes such as animal observation environmental such as animal observation environmental such as animal observation environmental science physical oceanography I failed science physical oceanography I failed science physical oceanography I failed miserably in all those classes miserably in all those classes miserably in all those classes struggling just to maintain C’s while struggling just to maintain C’s while struggling just to maintain C’s while everyone else earned A’s I knew I’d everyone else earned A’s I knew I’d everyone else earned A’s I knew I’d never be an animal biologist I was the never be an animal biologist I was the never be an animal biologist I was the only student in my graduating class not only student in my graduating class not only student in my graduating class not going on to a four-year college instead going on to a four-year college instead going on to a four-year college instead I was going to take classes at a I was going to take classes at a I was going to take classes at a community college one day my favorite community college one day my favorite community college one day my favorite teacher came up to me he said I hear teacher came up to me he said I hear teacher came up to me he said I hear you’re going to Community College you’re going to Community College you’re going to Community College listen don’t sell yourself so short listen don’t sell yourself so short listen don’t sell yourself so short there’s so many colleges out there some there’s so many colleges out there some there’s so many colleges out there some of them don’t care that much about who of them don’t care that much about who of them don’t care that much about who they take in there’s a college out there they take in there’s a college out there they take in there’s a college out there even for people like you he had meant it even for people like you he had meant it even for people like you he had meant it to be kind at least at this high school to be kind at least at this high school to be kind at least at this high school which was essentially a school for nerds which was essentially a school for nerds which was essentially a school for nerds I was no longer bullied I was no longer bullied I was no longer bullied i sat in stead alone during recess and i sat in stead alone during recess and i sat in stead alone during recess and lunch lunch lunch finally finally left alone and i’d OV d finally finally left alone and i’d OV d finally finally left alone and i’d OV d p– down into the world of fantasy p– down into the world of fantasy p– down into the world of fantasy literature i read constantly and soon my literature i read constantly and soon my literature i read constantly and soon my bedroom became a library filled with the bedroom became a library filled with the bedroom became a library filled with the complete Dragonlance chronicles Shannara complete Dragonlance chronicles Shannara complete Dragonlance chronicles Shannara series everything by Mercedes Lackey series everything by Mercedes Lackey series everything by Mercedes Lackey Andre and Norton a nurse Andre and Norton a nurse Andre and Norton a nurse Gwynne and then one day that girl came Gwynne and then one day that girl came Gwynne and then one day that girl came up to me and said what every lonely up to me and said what every lonely up to me and said what every lonely person dreams of hearing I bet you’re person dreams of hearing I bet you’re person dreams of hearing I bet you’re really interesting you should come play really interesting you should come play really interesting you should come play magic with us amazing how an act so magic with us amazing how an act so magic with us amazing how an act so simple and so small could have such an simple and so small could have such an simple and so small could have such an impact on my life never mind the fact impact on my life never mind the fact impact on my life never mind the fact that I wouldn’t be here today on this that I wouldn’t be here today on this that I wouldn’t be here today on this YouTube channel had she not come over to YouTube channel had she not come over to YouTube channel had she not come over to me but there is so much more that gift me but there is so much more that gift me but there is so much more that gift of magic and a sudden circle of friends of magic and a sudden circle of friends of magic and a sudden circle of friends gave me magic is a game that we gave me magic is a game that we gave me magic is a game that we Outsiders are drawn to we are often the Outsiders are drawn to we are often the Outsiders are drawn to we are often the outcasts the freaks the misunderstood outcasts the freaks the misunderstood outcasts the freaks the misunderstood the abused the frightened the deeply the abused the frightened the deeply the abused the frightened the deeply deeply lonely our lives are out of deeply lonely our lives are out of deeply lonely our lives are out of control in one way or another and we are control in one way or another and we are control in one way or another and we are drawn to magic because it is control drawn to magic because it is control drawn to magic because it is control unlike with life there are clearly unlike with life there are clearly unlike with life there are clearly defined rules I may not know what card defined rules I may not know what card defined rules I may not know what card my opponent is going to play but I know my opponent is going to play but I know my opponent is going to play but I know when it can and cannot be played I know when it can and cannot be played I know when it can and cannot be played I know what it does and what effect it has on what it does and what effect it has on what it does and what effect it has on the game state and what options I have the game state and what options I have the game state and what options I have to interact with it in Magic the to interact with it in Magic the to interact with it in Magic the Gathering I can tell people no and the Gathering I can tell people no and the Gathering I can tell people no and the only things that happen to me in game only things that happen to me in game only things that happen to me in game are by the rules rules we all agree to are by the rules rules we all agree to are by the rules rules we all agree to and understand there’s no one to corner and understand there’s no one to corner and understand there’s no one to corner me in the bathroom or punish me unfairly me in the bathroom or punish me unfairly me in the bathroom or punish me unfairly for the screws others have pelted me for the screws others have pelted me for the screws others have pelted me with the only screws our mana screw and with the only screws our mana screw and with the only screws our mana screw and I can live with that I can live with that I can live with that and even work on my curve so as to help and even work on my curve so as to help and even work on my curve so as to help negate it magic is the one part for many negate it magic is the one part for many negate it magic is the one part for many of us the only part of our lives we can of us the only part of our lives we can of us the only part of our lives we can have this level of control over that’s have this level of control over that’s have this level of control over that’s why we become so attached to our why we become so attached to our why we become so attached to our commanders and our favorite decks why so commanders and our favorite decks why so commanders and our favorite decks why so many of us play decks that aren’t tier many of us play decks that aren’t tier many of us play decks that aren’t tier one or that are just a fragile combo one or that are just a fragile combo one or that are just a fragile combo that only sometimes works it’s because that only sometimes works it’s because that only sometimes works it’s because what we play in magic represents us it’s what we play in magic represents us it’s what we play in magic represents us it’s our way of interacting with and showing our way of interacting with and showing our way of interacting with and showing ourselves to one another and suddenly I ourselves to one another and suddenly I ourselves to one another and suddenly I could make eye contact again I knew how could make eye contact again I knew how could make eye contact again I knew how to talk to the other people in my new to talk to the other people in my new to talk to the other people in my new circle of friends I could ask what their circle of friends I could ask what their circle of friends I could ask what their favorite cards were or if they wanted to favorite cards were or if they wanted to favorite cards were or if they wanted to see my deck or see my deck or see my deck or Trading a force of nature for a Trading a force of nature for a Trading a force of nature for a scrubland was a good deal and slowly bit scrubland was a good deal and slowly bit scrubland was a good deal and slowly bit by bit we could learn and would learn by bit we could learn and would learn by bit we could learn and would learn and did learn to talk about other things and did learn to talk about other things and did learn to talk about other things our parents and teachers and future no our parents and teachers and future no our parents and teachers and future no one in my magic circle thought I should one in my magic circle thought I should one in my magic circle thought I should be ashamed of going to Community College be ashamed of going to Community College be ashamed of going to Community College smart move I remember one person saying smart move I remember one person saying smart move I remember one person saying you’ll get two years of GE classes out you’ll get two years of GE classes out you’ll get two years of GE classes out of the way for a fraction of the cost of of the way for a fraction of the cost of of the way for a fraction of the cost of a four-year and I did and then went on a four-year and I did and then went on a four-year and I did and then went on to graduate school and two years of to graduate school and two years of to graduate school and two years of teacher training through the RET comm teacher training through the RET comm teacher training through the RET comm program from there I taught at Shanghai program from there I taught at Shanghai program from there I taught at Shanghai University and lived in China for two University and lived in China for two University and lived in China for two years before coming home to teach at years before coming home to teach at years before coming home to teach at community colleges I taught English and community colleges I taught English and community colleges I taught English and always brought in a selection of science always brought in a selection of science always brought in a selection of science fiction and fantasy books to my classes fiction and fantasy books to my classes fiction and fantasy books to my classes I emphasized the importance of these I emphasized the importance of these I emphasized the importance of these works not just as escapism but as a lens works not just as escapism but as a lens works not just as escapism but as a lens for viewing and understanding and above for viewing and understanding and above for viewing and understanding and above all questioning our own society and the all questioning our own society and the all questioning our own society and the directions we are headed in I delighted directions we are headed in I delighted directions we are headed in I delighted and sharing my favorite works of and sharing my favorite works of and sharing my favorite works of literature with young adults I reveled literature with young adults I reveled literature with young adults I reveled in encouraging students to go on to in encouraging students to go on to in encouraging students to go on to graduate school as I had and sharing graduate school as I had and sharing graduate school as I had and sharing with them the best paths to take in with them the best paths to take in with them the best paths to take in order to get there the translation from order to get there the translation from order to get there the translation from that to a YouTube channel about Magic that to a YouTube channel about Magic that to a YouTube channel about Magic the Gathering isn’t as jarring as you the Gathering isn’t as jarring as you the Gathering isn’t as jarring as you might think might think might think helping others discover and get the most helping others discover and get the 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and twist it I want so its core greedy and twist it I want so its core greedy and twist it I want so desperately to help others because I so desperately to help others because I so desperately to help others because I so desperately wanted help myself I go desperately wanted help myself I go desperately wanted help myself I go through life trying to give what it is I through life trying to give what it is I through life trying to give what it is I want to be given what we all want to be want to be given what we all want to be want to be given what we all want to be given for that one moment when a given for that one moment when a given for that one moment when a stranger walks over to you sitting alone stranger walks over to you sitting alone stranger walks over to you sitting alone reaches out a hand and says come with us reaches out a hand and says come with us reaches out a hand and says come with us you and this video is brought to you by my and this video is brought to you by my 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